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About Me Member DA Addict Michael David Atkinson17/Male/United Kingdom Recent Activity Deviant for 4 Years
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Lord of Time

This is my favourite piece of artwork that I have done so far. The two best Doctors from Doctor Who in my opinion, William Hartnell and Paul McGann; William Hartnell is the ultimate, definitive TV Doctor and Paul McGann is the perfect Doctor for audio. He's also quite like Hartnell, but less grouchy! It was a gift for my good friend Promus Kaa.

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This is my art. Much of it so far is pretty mediocre compared to the likes of morbidthegrim and Promus Kaa, but I'm rather pleased with my pencil drawings, so you can expect more of them.

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My personal favourite art found on this website. Much of it is Doctor Who, Star Trek and photography. I hope you like my taste in art, and find art you too love in this collection.

Insecurity - Advice and empathy needed

Tue Aug 25, 2009, 10:54 AM
I think it all started last April. I was in a relationship, a pretty intense one. Don't ask me how it happened but towards the end of what seemed a pretty perfect pairing, I'd send a text to my sweetheart saying "I love you" or whatever and she'd reply with "lol kk". I told her that I needed her help as I was getting severely insecure, and when I told her this she got upset and angry with me.

A week later she left me.

Fast forward to the present, and I'm single, foot-loose and fancy-free, and part of a very, very close friendship with a girl called Hollie (ethereal-crow, you'll know who I mean), and every so often I feel really insecure about how she feels etc. Thing is, she's done nothing to warrant me feeling insecure, which is what makes it harder. I'll worry about things like:

Will she remember to get in touch with me?
Does she want to see me?
If I say 'I love you' will she say it back?

And other mundane things. Hmm, well, you see, they're not really worries, cos I know she loves me etc. They're more fears. It's like, just about everyone is scared of fire, yeah? You're scared about it but you don't worry about it, you just get on with your life. However, if you've been involved in like a housefire or whatever, you DO worry about it. It's the same thing. Everyone on Earth is scared of their loved ones turning their backs on them, but it rarely happens. It's really doing my head in, and is quite possibly the cause of my recent suicidal thoughts...

I've talked to Hollie about these feelings, and she's done her utmost to help me, and she really has made me improve my feelings and self esteem etc, but heck, it's still killing me slowly. Like I was looking forward to talking to her this evening, and I phoned to see if she was still up for it and she said she's too tired. Perfectly reasonable and fair enough and I know she's not lying. But do you know what? It's hit me REALLY hard, and it wouldn't do at any other time. It's ridiculous, but it feels like I wanna cry.

Someone, somewhere, help. Please!

  • Mood: Insecure
  • Listening to: Tears for Fears - Shout
  • Reading: The screen
  • Watching: The screen
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Nothing

Devious Info

  • Current Residence: Rochdale, Lancashire, United Kingdom
  • Interests: Railways Θ Titanic Θ Dr Who Θ History Θ LOM/A2A
  • Favourite movie: Star Trek Θ James Bond movies 1-20 Θ Harry Potter Series Θ 1960s Dalek Movies
  • Favourite band or musician: Tears for Fears Θ Spandau Ballet Θ Pink Floyd
  • Favourite genre of music: Mixed
  • Favourite artist: morbidthegrim Θ Promus-Kaa Θ Daniel Whittaker (whit-taker.deviantart)
  • Favourite poet or writer: Mark Haddon Θ Simon Armitage Θ Terry Nation Θ Steven Moffat
  • Favourite photographer: David Atkinson Θ Myself
  • Favourite style of art: Traditional pencil and paper Θ Image Manipulation Θ CGI Θ Photography
  • Operating System: Microsoft Windows 7 Ultimate x64
  • MP3 player of choice: Windows Media Player 11
  • Shell of choice: explorer.exe
  • Wallpaper of choice: Doctor Who Θ Star Trek Θ Trains Θ Girls Θ Pink Floyd
  • Skin of choice: Aero
  • Favourite game: Half-Life 2 Θ Spore Θ Star Trek Bridge Commander Θ Destiny of the Doctors
  • Favourite gaming platform: PC
  • Favourite cartoon character: Stewie Griffin
  • Personal Quote: Go f'rit.
  • Tools of the Trade: Acer Aspire 5920G Θ Pencil and Paper

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:iconm-daal:
Thanks for the fave on Sexuality: Lesbian. I'm glad you like it.
:iconzeldaartist:
i have done your drawings, i have drawn you a couple of curt, hope you dont mind.
if i can i will draw roland for you in the future.

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:iconralphenstein:
Thanks for the fave! :D

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:iconnetseawolf:
Good gallery

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:iconzeldaartist:
what do you want me to draw you? e.g... curt...roland..who?

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:iconkafaraqgatri:
Both would be pretty good :) Thanks!

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:iconzeldaartist:
ok i will get round to it when i get the chance.

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:iconkafaraqgatri:
Thankyou :) what would you like me to draw for you? Half term soon so I should be able to do it then :)

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:iconzeldaartist:
canyou draw me curt?

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